Friday, September 08, 2006

More Shit, Different Day!

I’m on the train at the minute on my way to Croydon for the BFWCOP tournament knees up extravaganza organised by Mandylou. The GNER trains 1st Class is excellent value @ £70 return to Doncaster, it would cost me £150 in juice + hassle with my motor so it’s perfect. Wireless broadband as well what more could you ask for? I’m sat here typing away whilst all around me probably think look at the executive typing up his documents.. LOOOOL

Tough for me to make it today and if it wasn’t for the amount of effort ML puts into these events I’d 100% be swerving this one as I am full of cold and feeling real shitty. In addition to having a cold I am severely jet-lagged and since I came home from my jollies I have tilted away another 7k of my extremely hard earned cash.

Tilted is probably being a little to hard on myself or (honest) but I have this feeling that I don’t know how to play poker anymore. My previous successes mostly came from cash games online however, now I’m apprehensive about playing cash as I feel my game is too loose at present and I’ll bluff to much as a result. You see the 6-pacs really improve your game as a player in my opinion and I feel like my game has taken huge leaps forwards although comically in results terms it’s gone backwards. The point is the more aware I am of the game the worse my results have been

As I make progress in Poker I have integrated new things into my game and my thinking has changed as a result. There are so many facets to this game it is mind boggling but at the minute I wish I could turn back the clock a little to when ignorance was bliss, (I might win a few quid then) instead of blowing it… Basically it feels like I’m going through a phase of all that is bad in poker and can’t find my feet. I have tweaked my game a little and possess bursts of clever play every now and then but predominantly I need to either pack in or sort my head out. Add to that some real bad outdraws when I play clever in the six-pacs I indulge in more hand history analysis, and send a couple to Hawko cos he loves reading them so much. I seem to start turning it around but it doesn’t last, it's just not sustained anymore.
(I have played the wrong way I think for a good while now and the formulae I had is long gone unless for some reason it’s a ‘Live’ event). Mmmmmmmm where have I heard that before?

So as I get to this stage of my update and have a little look at what’s been wrote I know what I need to do to bring my game back. I answer the question to myself every fekking time

---DISCIPLINE MYSELF TO MAKE CHANGES---

OK no more depressing shit on this blog I have the answer. Every time I say I have a game ‘live’ why do I not have a game online??

'Live' I believe people a lot more maybe that’s a sense of mine when looking at an opponent. There is room for improvement available cos online in my mind they’re always bluffing and if they’re not then my cards might at least be Live and I’m only a 6/4 dog LOOOOOOOOL.

When ‘Live’ I don’t play pissed, online I regularly play pissed and I think I’m brilliant at controlling my self whilst loading up another table.

When the house is empty I play my best or when I’m not constantly sat on my PC all day loading tourney after tourney. I have all the answers they’re looking right at me saying sort it out fool and this is my ultimate test.

Get my drift yet?

I believe I know all (well not all) the answers but I (know) how to win at this game so I have no more excuses for not doing so and....
------------- My statement as from today is 'I MUST not SHOULD' -------------

When I first started playing I lost 12k online then spun it round to winning 30k. That has gone back into the poker economy and I am basically starting from scratch. I have had over 2yrs of free poker training and now I must prove to myself I possess the self discipline to make a success of my chosen recreation. This blog is full of what I should do and I repeat the same things over and over. However, SHOULD has now become MUST and in order to improve I MUST implement these changes, END OF...

The BFWCOP is my time to chill and meet fellow players from the poker forum at Betfair. When I return home I have some big changes to make in my life and I’ll keep you posted on them. However, now it’s time to get back into the real world and away from the confines of this blog where the skeletons definitely come out of the cupboard for a couple of hours.

All the best of luck at the tables...

Endnote:
Whilst playing comfortable in the day with no distractions I play in 3 x games with Buzzer and in 3 of the games I see him wipe players out in every game by hitting a miracle river card. One of the victims was me with blinds at 200/400 I had just managed to steal my way back from the dead after the table fish got lucky on me and found A 5 in the BB three of us left. Buzzer raises on the button all-in and I call instantly knowing with him it could be any two he shows 10 4 off suit and the flop comes K 5 Q the turn is an A giving me two pair and the river a Jack to make buzzer the winning hand sending me to the rails…

Why is this game so fascinating???

Just arrived at Kings X!
This was one productive and hopefully profitable journey...

2 Comments:

Blogger richard trigg said...

mate, every thought about ditching the pc for a laptop? i used to be sat upright on a shitty chair all night, now i got laptop on coffee table bottle of red in one hand digical remote in t'other free reign on t.v and speed dial to the local curry house, i believe it has made my game a lot more relaxed and i don't get involved in things i shouldn't, esp when big rons manager is on.

1:33 pm  
Anonymous Yellow said...

Regression through wisdom? Sounds familiar but maybe its not wisdom just knowledge.
Arrogance diminishes wisdom

9:34 pm  

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